Trapped in My Own Darkness

Nov 15, 2021

Written by: Cynthia Gonzalez

Mental illness is a spectrum. 1 in 6 people suffer from mental illness. Whether it’s an addictive personality, depression, anxiety or personality disorder.

“Healing isn’t linear it’s okay to cry about something you thought you healed from”

Avi

Because mental health is different for everyone, “healing” from those mental illnesses and figuring out how to deal with the ups and downs can be very different and complicated for everyone.

Some people deal with manic episodes and at other times they are lucid. Mania or “manic episode” is a state of mind where it is characterized by high energy, excitement and euphoria over a period of time. It is an extreme change in mood. An example of a manic episode can be impulsively dying or cutting your hair. Or the urge to get piercings/tattoos.

I struggle with my own mental illnesses. I have the high highs and the low lows. 
It’s a constant cycle being trapped in my own head. It’s like you have to stay busy to get a peace of mind.

Mental health is important but we as teenagers are struggling more and more. Multiple videos (the one above) have been going around social media of kids who are just too tired to function. They are drained and each dealing with their own issues.

These issues need to be addressed and talked about more. Before more kids start to get burnt out.

I believe that the COVID quarantine that was issued in March of 2020 added to the physical and mental health of teenagers all over the United States.

There was a international decline when it came to mental health. People were overwhelmed , and dealt with anxiety, depression, and stress. Public health actions, such as social distancing made people feel isolated and lonely. Causing an increase of stress and anxiety.

When the COVID regulations where lifted and things went back to normal , people realized they lacked basic communication skills and confidence.

My own friends and I went through a few of these ups and downs during quarantine. 

Yaz ( my best friend ) experienced Covid a different way than I did. She became insecure with her self. And struggled with her self esteem. Which caused her anxiety to raise, making her an online school student. But it also made her independent.

During Covid I became the most myself but struggled in my own ways. I was severely depressed and and lonely. But I strived academically. I also noticed I was less of an introvert, but still dealt with high levels of anxiety.

Most of the time mental health isn’t talked about enough. Causing the people dealing with it to suppress causing long term issues.

Mental health shouldn’t be seen as a negative thing , most people say no to treatment or help because of the negative stigma that surrounds mental illness.

You don’t have to struggle in silence

Get help. Living with mental illness is capable but not easy. You just have to be willing to accept what it comes with.


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